I have never had a dream.
A dream in which I wake up,
Cold and clammy and sweat drenched.
I have never believed.
I have read about it,
Heard about it;
How it burns.
Where unimagionable pain and suffering dwells,
Forever blinding pain.
Where your skin blisters,
And your screams are muffled.
Where a treacherous hole waits for your fall,
Then swallow and engulf you,
A want to consume your pathetic being.
A beast lurks there,
With fetid, rotting jaws,
Spitting flem and blood of other victims in your face,
As he clamps his ugly head around your shoulders,
And thrills on your struggeling.
You are lost,
But not entirely.
A place where fire burns,
Burns your very soul.
A mighty knife twists through your chest,
The finest point of misery.
A sweet, bitter kindling of dispair.
I have never believed in hell,
..........and then I met you.


for LOLA(not really, just sounds cool to dedicate this to someone.)....who is a total bitch!!!! but god she is hot!!!

I love you Lola.


now for me..

Since I am indecisive, i am never sure about anything.
But there are some things I am deffinately sure about:
I am sure of these three things:
.Brian is gay
.Btjt is deffinately Btjt
.and people who wear lipstick are way cooler than YOU!

wow, i just amazed myself with my creative talent.

goodnight, good morning, and gootenargen to all (including Ludie)



take this gun...and blow me away...